Thursday, April 24, 2008

THANKS REBA!!!!!

DOING VS. BEING

QUICKLY, HERE IS A LIST OF THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP TO MY DEVELOPMENT AS A PERSON . . .AT LEAST, I HOPE.

DOING
1. Participated in first Strongman event
2. Started learning jiu-jitsu and grappling
3. Two day drive back to Colorado with no music or other in-car noise
4. Saying goodbye to loved people
5. Moved into drastically smaller living space

BEING
1. Pushed myself to several “personal bests” and gained confidence in my ability to do things I never thought of doing until recently
2. Learning to ‘not freak out’ when someone is smothering me. [life long fear/phobia]
3. Continued to develop ear for God’s voice and enjoyed the scenery: Mt. Rushmore, Custer Park, Black Hills, and the antelope of Wyoming. Also, re-entering relaxed pace of life west of the Mississippi River
4. Trusting relational strength; faith in God’s desire for me to have good gifts; ability to receive; bigger picture perspective; carrying the hope that I will develop new relationships in Durango
5. Opportunity to get rid of superfluous stuff; ongoing journey of simplicity

Monday, April 07, 2008

Sweat

It seems like all I have done lately is sweat. I have never been an athlete or athletic for that matter. Every sport is an extreme one for me. I've tried golf, but I need a lot of lessons in order to truly play correctly, and I am not that interested or motivated for that right now.
So, I have been doing this crazy strength training since last September. In two weeks, I'll be in an athletic competition for the first time. It's not a huge event, but a new experience nonetheless.
Last month I began to learn jiu jitsu. This past week I have been training with the guys at Team No Ego in Oswego, IL. They prepare pro fighters--in addition to offering training for other crazy men wanting to get thrown around and sweat their asses off.
I sweat--a lot. It seems like I am sweating all the time. It's strange to see your body slowly transform and to gauge how much "back up" you have when pressed against a wall by someone trying to hit you or take you down. I am a true beginner/novice. Everyone kicks my ass right now: little guys, big guys, old guys, and high school wrestlers. But, my cardio is getting better. My aggressiveness is building. I sweat and sweat and sweat as I try to learn a new language, fit into a new culture & survive until the round buzzer goes off. If I could just catch my breath, maybe I could stop freaking out when someone is on top of me trying to make me submit. Sometimes the sweat make it hard for them to hold onto me.
The sweat can help you escape. Sweat is a sign of struggle, of work, and of persistence. I am escaping inactivity and getting used to walking around dripping wet.
Sweat takes you to places you would otherwise not have reached without it. I have not been in shape like this since my early twenties.
Can't wait to start sweating tomorrow. We'll see where it gets me.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Overview for Book Proposal

Each year more than one million children experience their parents’ divorce. Why is the timing for this book perfect right now? Just like Rick Warren’s national best-selling Purpose Driven Life answered adults’ questions about the meaning of life, It’s Not Fair will infuse teenagers with a sense of purpose despite desperate circumstances. Counselors and therapists who work with teens asked them, “What do you see as the major stresses/problems facing today's teenagers?” 72% of the respondents listed, ‘Problems arising from parental divorce.’ In addition to the normal challenge of adolescence, divorce activates a vast array of difficulties that, without the proper guidance, can lead to damaging results—both now and later in life. “Children of divorced parents are . . . twice as likely as others to have poor relationships with their parents, drop out of high school and receive psychological help.” The book will show teens where to go for help, how to regain control over their lives, what the facts are concerning the tough issues they face and how to deal with them successfully.
Furthermore, teenagers with divorced parents are more likely to feel that no one really understands them. The authors—Linda Jacobs, a divorced, single mom who now runs a national divorce care program for kids and Ben Wilcox, an adult child of divorce with years of experience working with teenagers from divorce situations—will connect with readers on every level by including real stories from teens who went through their parents’ divorce and adult children of divorce who prove that success in life is possible. Through fresh encounters with key Bible characters, relevant applications, and Scriptural references for life skills, the teenaged child of divorce will be doing something that will give new verve to their spirit, mind, body, and soul. In the United States alone, there are approximately 20 million teenagers living with just one parent. By reading It’s Not Fair, they have the chance to discover the power found in only Jesus and the critical opportunity to not only survive their parents’ divorce but also thrive in the midst of it.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Sell, sell, sell

Non-fiction writing means that you sell a proposal THEN write the majority of your book. Didn't know that. It's hard to be salesy about yourself and your ideas, too, but I think, out of necessity, I am getting over that.

I have learned so much over the past few weeks about the book writing process.

Agents have responded, and I am crapping my pants a little.

Sell, sell, sell

God is good, and I am loved. Let's hope people love our book!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Hey Pard!

P.C.R.

Along side the big San Juans,
Up passed Lemon Lake, rests a sanctuary of land.
One winding road is the path you must take.

It’s heavily guarded by aspen, fir, and pine;
Yet you’re surely welcome,
Any ol’ time is fine.

You might spot grouse, elk, or a deer.
Watch for hummingbirds
As they’re wont to zip past your ear.

Take in the vast sights & breathe deeply of the air.
Forget your troubles & worries for a spell;
Have a seat, pull up a chair.

This spread will feel like home
Shortly after you arrive
Relax and eat—no stress—no strain—no strive.

I thank the Lord for this piece of paradise
It’s cool outdoors,
But inside your spirits surely rise.

For the owners are good folk:
Generous and kind.
Help yourself! They don’t seem to mind.

If you’re worn and weary—
If it’s shelter that you seek—
If you can stay a weekend, day or a week-
Look ‘er up near Durango—
This ranch is Phantom Creek.

The Humble Horseman

An arrogant man always will fall--
No matter his strength or experience at all.

There is a truth to be found if you know where to look:
For some it comes by parents or friends or a book.

To each man, his own path is marked
With success, failure, and dreams never sparked.

But the heart-hope rises again and again
That a man’s life-work will not be in vain.

Remember, there’s a Creator that’s given you sight.
All this beauty is a gift, not a right--

What will you do with the days that remain?
Will you toil ever onward tho’ the sun seems to fade?

There’s time left still to fight on ‘til the end
Win or lose, some break and some bend.

A prize awaits those that really believed
That all is not earned: that true life must be received.

The proud cowboy thinks he knows it all--
But there’s truth you can find if you’re willing to fall.

The humble horseman has gained what can never be lost
It won’t fade or dull or be taken by frost.

The gift of life eternal is found just above
The last mountain ridge of life; it’s God’s precious love.

I hope that you feel it when life has you down
Our Creator & Redeemer, the best guide in town.

Here’s a secret that I’ve learned in my brief travels through:
If you draw close to God, He’ll draw close to you.
(James 4:8)

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Killer Curiosity

“Someday, your curiosity will be the death of you, Alan.”
How many times had he heard this before? No matter that he did, someone was always trying to rein him in. Well, no more. Alan was going to do it his way.
Growing up, Alan Bryce Woodson never thought his least favorite activity would get him anywhere—certainly not wealthy beyond belief. Sure, one little short story when he was twelve was cute enough, but he had had to do that: it was part of his final grade in English class. Now, twenty-one years and millions of dollars later, Alan was set to finally be out from under it all: the deadlines, the impossible editors, and the ‘book signing smiles’ he wore for so long it made his face hurt. No one could have imagined what he had been planning since his first novel made the New York Times bestseller list. In some ways, they were right about his curiosity: it was going to get him killed but not in some random, luckless fashion. No, Alan was going to take back control of his life the only way he knew how: by ending it.
At just twelve years of age, his first story was published, awarded first prize in every contest imaginable, and the rights sold to a major motion picture studio. From the outside, things seemed perfect. The young man enjoyed the trappings of his early success, but, quickly, things turned sour for him. Adolescent Alan craved privacy, and if there was one thing overnight celebrity did not afford you—it was time alone. His parents, thinking they were providing Alan a “well-rounded life,” began acting as his management team. They sent him to writer’s camps in the summer and, in the fall, a super-exclusive creative arts school for the gifted. He did the best he could to keep up appearances: smile and nod, smile and nod, etc. From these summer camps, Alan gained something that came to play a major role in a most personal story he was secretly crafting: a love of the woods.
His love for everything outdoors was further cultivated by his grandparent’s retirement house. This was neither the nursing nor the assisted living variety of your average old folk’s home. No, the Ray and Pat Connington place was one of a kind. Located in the mountains of Colorado, their log, ranch style retreat was accessible only by one-lane gravel path. Just up the road from an enormous reservoir lake, it was remote but replete with tantalizing opportunities for adventure around every bend. Phantom Creek Ranch, as Ray had named it, held Alan spellbound from the first moment he saw it.
Shortly after his fourteenth birthday, Alan convinced his parents to allow him to fly unaccompanied to spend part of his summers there. Of course, even this many miles away from his Pennsylvania home, the arrangement was not without strings attached. Alan’s mother and father, ever so concerned with his “gift” and development as a writer, made him promise to write at least three short stories by the end of every stay at Phantom Creek. As was his wont, young Alan never missed a deadline. In fact he could have turned them in early—he wrote every single story months before he stepped on the plane. Maybe his resentment towards his parents caused Alan to resort to deception. Whether this was the first time Alan engaged in trickery or not, he could not remember. Regardless, it was certainly not the last time that he responded to imposed obligation with deceit. No, like everything else he felt forced to do, Alan simply mastered it.
Alan would master many things during his summers in the woods. Far removed from the hubbub of city life—fishing, hunting, camping, and rock climbing all became second nature to him. Grandpa Ray taught the inquisitive teen all he knew about surviving in the mountains, and he showed Alan hard-to-reach places located high on the ridges of the surrounding peaks. As the years went by, Alan began to explore this mountainous playground on his own. Asked years later what Alan might have been doing up there by himself for hours on end, both Granddad and Grandma Connington replied, “My! We have no idea! He was such a quiet boy—kind of mysterious really. Alan was always coming up with these outlandish tales he would recite for us at the dinner table. What a tragedy; he’ll be missed dearly.”
“So what exactly are you telling us, De-TECT-ive?” demanded Mr. Woodson.
There they were, the three of them, at the edge of the cliff overlooking the Animas River. Barely visible above two feet of snow on the ground was the top of a climber’s spike. From it dangled the frayed end of a rope.
“I am trying to explain to you folks that all we found back at the campsite was a bedroll, some food, water, and a writer’s journal. That’s it. Now, I am sorry for your loss, but it appears that he is just . . . gone.” Detective First Grade Tom Schneider, Colorado State Police (Missing Persons Unit), was trying his best to present the facts—what little there were. “Look, I am truly sorry for your loss, but we have done all we can here. We just wrapped up the biggest manhunt in this state since D.B. Cooper. We dedicated more men, machines, and money to this thing than ever before. We know your son was famous and . . .”
“Famous has nothing to do with it!” Mr. Woodson spat back. “We need our son, and YOU couldn’t find him! Now what are we supposed to do, Detective?”
“Sir, Ma’am, believe me. If anything turns up, we will re-open this investigation and be all over every clue. But, for now, why don’t you go home? We’ve all been out here—in the mountains—in the bitter cold and snow, for weeks now. He just isn’t here. I am sorry to say, but he is gone. Mr. and Mrs. Woodson, as far as the Colorado State Police is concerned, Alan Bryce Woodson is dead.”
After several months, life went back to normal—as much as it could for the Woodsons and Alan’s grandparents: the Conningtons. Ray and Pat sat on their back patio enjoying another extraordinary afternoon at Phantom Creek. The sun soaking the mountains, the wind dancing through the chimes, hummingbirds dive-bombing the feeders hung lazily from the edge of the roof, and Cody, their barn cat, chasing one of a hundred little chipmunks that often darted through the grass in the eleven acres of land on which the house sat.
“Cody, be careful!” Grandma Connington chided the cat as it nearly fell off the top of the fence from where it was preparing to launch itself. “Sometimes I think that cat has a death-wish the way she’s always looking for trouble,” Grandma said to no one in particular.
“I know what you mean, Pat; reminds me of a young man I once knew: always into some new and dangerous adventure. Like they say, ‘Curiosity killed the cat,’” Granddad added. This last comment silenced both of them.
“Yeah, but, you know what I say, Granddad?” Alan interjected. Of course, no one knew him by that name now. He was Robert Noble: eccentric hunting guide and mountain recluse, an identity he had written into existence, complete with bank accounts (financial records show the deposits made every summer for the past ten years) and multiple forms of identification. “Sometimes curiosity does kill the cat, but that doesn’t mean it has to die.” The three laughed and returned their collective gaze to the splendor of the mountains surrounding them. These mountains not only buried the past but also held the promise of a new beginning. They were all curious what the future would hold.